Been 2 weeks since I came back and I must say it has been the most discouraging, disheartening period. No one has ever explained to me the emotional side of this whole job search process, I wished someone had. I wished someone prepared me for this emotionally. All I've ever heard was "it's tough". How detailed is that.
Since graduation, I've been looking out for jobs. I've been so hopeful I'll find one that I really love.
It started when I was really confused with what I wanted to do and apply for. So I spent weeks tryna find out. I thought I had it planned out but when the time came, I have so many interests. Like within Marketing and/or Management, there are heaps (then I spent like the next few weeks struggling with whether I wanted to be in the teaching industry right away...)
When I finally decided on Marketing, Advertising, HR, supply chain (purchasing), ormanagement consulting (took this off my list cause I think the pressure is too high for my liking. and Singaporeans are the worst clients to deal with, so nah).
It really took me very long because even after narrowing down, I didnt know what to search. If I solely searched the terms - 'marketing', 'HR' etc., head hunter companies will come up. and I didnt want to put my resume up some head hunting companies' webpage. I just dont feel comfortable with that - all the spam calls, emails, besides I have private information in my resume, didnt want to just publicly post them up. So that meant that I needed to know which company to search for and intentionally look at their careers page.
IF I FIND SOMETHING I LIKE, most of the time, they're not entry-level jobs. They require like a minimum of 2 years experience IN THE FIELD, some language or expertise in particular skills that obviously a fresh graduate wouldnt have -.-
IF I FIND A VACANCY and satisfy the requirements, most of the time their application process is freaking tedious. I always thought uploading a resume was all it takes. But hell, I was wrong. Cover letters have to be personalised, manually keying in all my details for each application even though I had it covered in my resume, questionnaires, and in some cases personality tests, literacy and numeracy tests. URGH, that frustration.
And then at the end of the day, after all these tedious processes, I get no replies. I'm just left here feeling unwanted. feeling unappreciated. completely stripped away of all my pride.
But above all I know and believe, this is a temporary circumstance. I just refuse to let this momentary status get to me - I really feel the peace in me when I am reminded about the time frame. I know He has great plans for me, prepared a job I will love.
But anyway, while I'm in this waiting process, I've had the opportunity to get things done. Pack and unpack my room, mani & pedi sessions, checking out SG after being away for a year, catch up with daddy and weekly dinners with granny, church visiting, bible study sessions in the mid-week. I've been really blessed <3
Since graduation, I've been looking out for jobs. I've been so hopeful I'll find one that I really love.
It started when I was really confused with what I wanted to do and apply for. So I spent weeks tryna find out. I thought I had it planned out but when the time came, I have so many interests. Like within Marketing and/or Management, there are heaps (then I spent like the next few weeks struggling with whether I wanted to be in the teaching industry right away...)
When I finally decided on Marketing, Advertising, HR, supply chain (purchasing), or
It really took me very long because even after narrowing down, I didnt know what to search. If I solely searched the terms - 'marketing', 'HR' etc., head hunter companies will come up. and I didnt want to put my resume up some head hunting companies' webpage. I just dont feel comfortable with that - all the spam calls, emails, besides I have private information in my resume, didnt want to just publicly post them up. So that meant that I needed to know which company to search for and intentionally look at their careers page.
IF I FIND SOMETHING I LIKE, most of the time, they're not entry-level jobs. They require like a minimum of 2 years experience IN THE FIELD, some language or expertise in particular skills that obviously a fresh graduate wouldnt have -.-
IF I FIND A VACANCY and satisfy the requirements, most of the time their application process is freaking tedious. I always thought uploading a resume was all it takes. But hell, I was wrong. Cover letters have to be personalised, manually keying in all my details for each application even though I had it covered in my resume, questionnaires, and in some cases personality tests, literacy and numeracy tests. URGH, that frustration.
And then at the end of the day, after all these tedious processes, I get no replies. I'm just left here feeling unwanted. feeling unappreciated. completely stripped away of all my pride.
But above all I know and believe, this is a temporary circumstance. I just refuse to let this momentary status get to me - I really feel the peace in me when I am reminded about the time frame. I know He has great plans for me, prepared a job I will love.
This period of time has just not been easy, the testing of my faith, trust and confidence in Him is immense :') Cant wait for the day the acceptance comes!For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jer 29:11
But anyway, while I'm in this waiting process, I've had the opportunity to get things done. Pack and unpack my room, mani & pedi sessions, checking out SG after being away for a year, catch up with daddy and weekly dinners with granny, church visiting, bible study sessions in the mid-week. I've been really blessed <3
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