This platform has been so dated and I just wanted to fill up a bit of updates before life gets in the way :x
Anw....... if you're wondering about my MOE application........ I didnt get in.... got rejected....
I had the choice to not mention it at all and I know I hate rejection and hate people knowing about my rejection but I thought I've come to terms with it so I'll humble down and say this.
Went through moments of emotional breakdowns since the rejection. Questioned so much 'whys' and all of a sudden I had no plans what was the next step to take.. Ya, I mean definitely start applying for other jobs, but what I put all my hope in has now become a closed door...
REALLY struggled so much and but I knew I had to trust in His provision and have faith despite all the questions that I may have. I think the moment I had that mentality, I understood completely what He meant when He said His thoughts are higher than mine. And there are somethings that I wouldnt understand because of the circumstance I'm in and how short-term my thoughts are. It really reminded me of Easter Camp 2015 when I was serving as logistics head and when drivers had some issues with the transportation, I really wished that they trusted us enough to know that whatever decisions we made was for their best interests. If I were to tell and communicate to everyone the rationale of all decisions, it would have been too much to convey. Leaders are there to manage the big picture and think for the greater good and sometimes members should just obey and ride along trusting that they are in good hands.
ANYWAY...that was me a month ago... and about 2 weeks later, I had my Europe trip and it was so memorable. I met amazing people that took so good care of me even though they had no obligation to. I mean there are people who respect decisions that individuals make so they dont impose anything and comment too much about their lives. But these people that went Europe with me had the best interest for me they made sure that I don't walk alone and if I do, they turn back and check on me every 7 steps <3 Made sure I had somewhere to sit and always always invite me to join them (even though some are on honeymoon - WHAT YOU SHOULD JUST HAVE YOUR OWN TIME WITH YOUR WIVES AND HUSBANDS!!! Sometimes I insist not to join, sometimes I would because they're just amazing people I want to get to know). The time when I had such a bad altitude sickness and was so quiet, everyone was so worried and offered help to their best ability. I really cant express how well-loved I was, and so undeserving.... like seriously what have I done? - nothing :')
I love being love, always being thought of, and having that special treatment <3
A lot more happened than just meeting great people, there was also the Paris attack on the day I landed in Italy... there were so many different types of Gypsies that I didnt see 3 years ago, there was snow, and visit to red light district in Amsterdam, Beatbox from an Arabic man etc...... Will leave that to another time!!
For now, pictures of Adelaide for OCF Convention 2014 from my Gopro! Everyone we met and kept in contact was amazing too!! Ahhh, He just sends so many people in my life that I wish I could keep forever <3 He's indeed our good good Father and I love Him so.
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